Well, its been 2 1/2 months since I graduated. And the questions I keep getting are, “Have you gotten a job yet?” “Any prospects?” “Where are you looking?” For the record, here are my answers. No. No. Nowhere. I am not currently looking for a job in the dental field.
I can say without a shadow of a doubt that I was supposed to go to dental assisting school. I know that that was the direction God was taking my life. But now that I’m done, I have a sense that he has something for me outside of a traditional job, at least for the time being. I can always go back to the dental field, but I am in such a unique season in my life right now. I am 20 years old, single, have little debt, am done with college….I really have nothing tying me down right now aside from relationships.
That being said, I do not know specifically where God is leading me. Honestly, He could just be giving me a break before I go to work at a dentist office. I really don’t know. I have a lot of dreams and desires, but I don’t want that to be the driving force in any decisions I make in this season in my life. My flesh absolutely wants that to be the case, but I desire more than anything to be living out God’s plan for my life, which requires sacrifices.
I have a few different areas of ministry that have been brought up to me recently, but at this point I am just playing the waiting game. I have to be honest, it kind of sucks, because I am so used to having a plan for my life. I’m so used to having the next few years of my life mapped out, and now absolutely nothing is certain. This is such an interesting and stretching season for me spiritually and emotionally, but I can say even now in the midst of it that it is not something I would ever trade for the return.
A relationship with Christ, a true, passionate, committed, devoted and loving relationship with Him is worth more to me than anything this world could offer me, and it is far more worthy a cause to be suffering for. I am seeing every day more and more what kind of amazing, loving God I serve and it really makes these uncertain days completely worth it.
I guess those are my after midnight thoughts this evening.
